It has been almost a year since I last posted. A lot has happened. I've gotten my NREMT-B, a car, been to 10 different states on disaster relief missions, done over 300,000 push-ups and run and hiked several hundred miles. I've had to give up on hopes and dreams and been able to reopen new ones. I have, to my shame, let friendships die and then built new ones, I have searched and fasted and prayed for the will of God in my life and my future. I have watched people die, and helped bring them back, I have made a lot of mistakes and recovered from a few of them with dignity. I have met with discipline and been found wanting only sometimes on par with the standards. I have led men and learned to follow, I have learned that I, me, the great and odious self, is a monstrous dragon that will devour anything in its way. Except, that self is nothing. It it is a mere speck on the face of existence . I am so small, so tiny, I do not even need a comparison. This loathsome beast lets pride grow up within it and tear at the fiber of my being to 'rear it's ugly head' so to speak.
There is so much that has happened, so much that I have done and much that I have missed. Yet I know I am where God wants me and he will continue to provide for me in spite of my resistance to him and my failure to trust him. I am headed back to the International ALERT Academy in Big Sandy, Texas in a few short days. I know I will be stretched and grown and made more like Christ but what I pour into it will determine what I get out of it.
I named my blog 'Passion' for multitudinous reasons. Some people have told me I have no passion, so I need more. Some have said I am depressed, (LIE!) some have said I'm a goof-ball, most say I'm a cynical, sarcastic, demeaning hunk of beef jerky. Well maybe not the beef jerky part. I desire to serve God and to advance his kingdom on earth. It will be difficult it will be hard to find he way sometimes but I am looking for a few good men and women who are devoted to the cause of Christ. I don't want his to be some sort of mamby-pamby I am a part of this support group and I like Jesus on Facebook. I want to know who wants to change the world by living out God's plan for their life. Oh boy! Where's my sarcasm meter? This is great! Let's go serve God. NO! Not that at all, I don't even know how it's gonna work but I'm willing to do what I know is right and trust God for the rest. Time is too precious to waste go do something with it.
It has been amazing year, now I will go get ready for another year of change in life.
This is not a New Years resolution: this is me being passionate about impacting the world for Christ by doing what you do best the very best you can. That's not repetitive at all...
